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Its raining outside. Its raining heavily. I cannot even see the house infront of my house. There is no one on the road. The loudest music which I can hear is the rain. I don’t have remote to lower the #volume and blessed that we cannot do so. I want to so outside, sit some where comfortably and cry till my last drop of tears roll down to my cheek, till my last sob. But what I desperately want is some one to sit besides me and say baby bolo na mai sun raha. But some time we have to replace people by pillows, hands with handkerchief,hugs with bedsheet.
lucky are those people who have some one in their emotional times and need not to replace people by materials.
Sometime you have a bad day, a very very bad day. You are emotionally stuck to some thing. You are not physically and mentally healthy . And the only thing which you want to do is only cry.
I am a kind of strong girl who can handle everything since its my perception with which I have lived with about 23+ years(not gonna reveal age) but still I have some people in my life reminds me frequently that what I think was an bravery act around 3-4year ago was an bullshit. But I still respect him and love him from soul of my heart my body only becasue he don’t know what I have gone through and I dont think we all are answerable to the people who question on our past deeds..there is always an difference between thinking and acting between a girl and a boy. So I never clarify. I just keep him going on.
Since from my childhood I have been the eldest sister/daugther from my both paternal and maternal side. So I have an inbuilt talent of doing thing for others sake,to share my things. I love to make other’s happy. I cannot smile after getting something by my stubbornity.
But I cry. And when I have my emotional days I cry a lot. I just need someone just to sit besides me, hug me and say,
I dont expect from any one to come and rescue me from. My messed up life. No..but needed only a person who would say
“speak whatever you want,say aloud whatever you feel, say as much as you have in your heart,on your toungue,in your mouth,in your brain, say to me. “
Every people had done something wrong in their life. No one is perfect. Some people are thief but the do only for their bread and butter not to became ambani or mittal. People do mistake and so did I, for sake of someone’s happiness. To make some one proud and he is happy. And I am happy becaus he is happy. I dont want to be get judge for my mistakes because it was an bravery act for me.
When ever you think your patner is getting emotional feeling weak. Please sit down and listen not to judge them not to tell them what is right and what is wrong not to take out their pass deeds not to speak in rage that the sob utill they get cough. Try to calm them down. Beacuse this is the situation when they need you most when they are mentally weak. Tell them here are only you and I,and I promise you I will never judge you. Let the pain be wipe out from the heart body brain. So that she can feel better. If you have someone in your life the you should feel lucky enough if she cry infront of you. You have won her heart that she can say whatever she wants. Never start discussing oh i dont like you cry be strong ,keep control in anger on that day you did this. Oh in eveing you will feel guilty for your words.
No!!!!! Never do that.
I have always missed something in my life and today I am missing my pillow man. Because i dont have any. so till my last breath will cry with my pillow. Not infornt of them who will shoot questions sentences judgement.
My bravery act in next post.
Thankyou for reading my senti-mental post. Atleast I have you guyz where you never judge me.
This show me some day I will be strong.